Yesterday I started to feel more like myself, didn't feel tired/achy/out of it. Finally. Really haven't been able to eat much of anything for the past week, and nothing has appealed to me. Just don't feel interested in eating. Is this how thin people feel all the time?
Today I was hungry and really felt like myself. Yay. I had tofu for breakfast, cheese stick snack, shashimi for lunch, watermelon for a snack, and by 4:00 my stomach was rumbling and I was legitimately hungry. I didn't have any snacks and had to go to a cocktail party after work. I had 2 mini-crab cakes and some water. Still have no interest in alcohol.
I got home at 7:00 and was starving. I ate 4 small shrimp cocktail and a few bites of quinoa. I could tell I was full so stopped eating. About 3 minutes later I could feel...well...it coming back up. :( I made it to the kitchen sink, so that's good.
Throwing up now is a very different sensation -- it just happens, super fast, then it's over. I feel like in the past puking was more of an all-body experience, with my stomach contracting and more of an effort. Now it doesn't seem to come from my stomach, it's more like the food is in my esophagus and has nowhere to go, so comes back up. Now I'm sitting here wondering, "Am I hungry? Should I eat? Did I throw it all up?" I guess I'll just chill and see how I feel in a little bit. And start bringing more food with me. And stop eating too fast.
As someone who thinks about food all the time (When is my next meal and what will it be??) I would think it would be so nice NOT to always be thinking about food. So it's funny to hear you excited about it. I guess it's all relative, right? It sounds like it's such a delicate balance for you to know how much to eat. Hopefully over time portions and timing will become second nature - -but for now it's trial and error! (I'm still wondering how that guy in your group ate a sub?!)
ReplyDeleteI don't think I could eat a sub yet!!!!
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